My friend and I were just discussing this exact phenomenon last week... why is it that we suddenly change who we are based on who we are around? Some days I feel like a chameleon because I am so easily able to befriend and emulate different types of people. I can comfortably relate and carry on with co-workers who are the same age as my parents. Just as easily, I can resort back to the same sweet little high school girl that is not at all that sweet as soon as I am around high school friends. When I think back to recently spending time with high school friends, I can't believe I behaved like that! Who am I? Why do I digress back to a high schooler when I am so much more knowledgeable, spiritual, and grown up? Am I really?
Nine years after that freshman year, I guess I am still trying to figure out who I am. I am a relatively happy and confident person. That hasn't changed since I can remember. The people and places have changed, but not how I feel when compared to the others around me. Although I am surrounded by some truly wonderful and admirable people, I still look to others for their affirmations of my looks and my actions.
My friend Ashley at Sipsey Valley said it best as she described how the Bible gives us instructions on guarding our hearts and minds from this battle. Her post is filled with verses that address character and self-worth, but two of my favorite verses are
Finally brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is excellent or praiseworthy--think about such things (Philippians 4:8 NIV).
Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight. (1 Peter 3:3-4)